‘The Collected Regrets of Clover’ book review: What makes life worth living?

Fiction

The Collected Regrets of Clover

Mikki Brammer

Published: 2023

Publisher: Penguin Random House UK

Pages: 314, Paperback

‘The Collected Regrets of Clover’ deals with death, a topic most of us aren’t comfortable with and actively avoid discussing. I didn’t buy it after reading the blurb (I must confess it spooked me a little) but the book kept popping up on my Instagram feed. Many of my close friends had read it (and loved it), as had a few celebrities I follow on the social media platform. Also, the raving reviews on Good Reads made me curious. So, I went back to Ekta Bookstore in Thapathali, Kathmandu, to buy myself a copy.

It is, hands down, the best book I have read in 2023. Since the new year is just a month away, I doubt there will be other contenders for that title. Though the story is about death and accepting the fleetingness of life, it’s also about finding joy in the little things in life, conquering your fears, and the importance of meaningful connections.

Clover is a death doula. She spends time with those who are dying if they have no one to take care of them or if their relatives can’t deal with the practical matters that come with a loved one’s passing, like planning a funeral, etc. Ever since Clover was five and she watched a teacher die while telling her class a story, she has been comfortable with death in a way no one around her is. This makes her a sort of outcast in school. A new girl Clover wants to be friends with actually says it will hurt her image.

In her 30s, with only one (elderly) friend, and no family or romantic partners, Clover is alone in the world. She spends a lot of time with those who are dying and tries to learn a lesson from each one of them. She has notebooks titled ‘Regrets’, ‘Advices’, and ‘Confessions’. Though she actively avoids human connection, you get the sense that she is somewhat craving it too. Then she meets the feisty Claudia who has terminal cancer and is expected to die in a few months. As Clover gets to know Claudia, she slowly learns to reclaim the life she’s lost.

The writing is beautiful. There are phrases and paragraphs that I reread one too many times. ‘Grief is just love looking for a place to settle’ is one of my favorite lines from the book. The characters are crafted well. Clover, Leo, Sebastian, Claudia, and the others all have distinct personalities. You enjoy getting to know them and their quirks. It’s an enjoyable read and the story makes you realize the importance of living without inhibitions and taking chances.